Now I know why I was so angry!?

I meet up with my ex. We are now "friends", he has moved on , which as a friend I would have advised him against but hey. We went out a week ago and he made me angry. Not the first time but this time was different I just wanted the feelings of anger to stop. I just wanted to stop letting him control my emotions. I also read an article about divorce and that helped me as well. I was  hiding behind my anger to make him the bad guy, when in reality he isn't. He tried his best and he is trying his best to be the best dad. I want to control him  and because he is so pliable, think that he would go for it. Because he is so passive/aggressive I just think every suggestion I make he should take, but I cant control anyone and come to think of it I don't want to. We both tried our best and sometimes things don't work out, and I was angry at him because he was so slow to action but thats probably because he is scared and there is nothing wrong with being scared. I think he needs to work on his relationship with his daughter seeing her more and being more relaxed with her but its not my business. He will have to work on his relationship with her by himself and  I will be there for her if she needs me. I have to stop thinking I can change people and why would I want to. I'm too busy trying to fix/help myself. I give myself permission to not try to change anyone and to curb my anger.

The year of Me

I thought in Feb after my birthday in 2011, that I have to take care of me. More. I always thought I was doing right by myself, I relaxed, I took care of my daughter, tried to pay my bills and drank water, but I never took care of m myself. I never took a break to do something for myself like shopping. Every shopping trip was fraught with guilt, like should I have this, can I afford this. I got my taxes back and went shopping this year with no guilt no remorse. I always wanted to take time out and go to the movies. I did it! I joined a gym, I have been watching what I eat and exercising. Taking care of me. I just thought that taking care of my daughter was just taking care of me, but its not. If im not well I cant take care of anyone else. Now I realize that. I was just going and going, working going thru life like a zombie, now I pay attention, now I am aware of my feelings and I feel good life is good and my daughter is good. I am looking forward to summer. Thanks me.