Really confused

So my daugter turned 4 this week. I am so happy for her and me. I feel like she is really adjusting well to my separation, and being in a new school around new kids, but I hear that kids are very adjustable. . I am worried about something and its me and my personal relationships. I always hear you get what you put out and I guess my friendships are true to form. I mean I dont think I am high maintenance but soemthing is bothering me. Phonecalls. The most common form of comuincation is not working for me, or me and some of my friends. For instance my daughter had a gathering of a few other 4 year old kids. I invitied a close friend and her mother. So Sat comes around no show and no phone call, even after they made a confimration that they were coming Via text.. I have a friend that doesnt return phone calls for weeks at a time, a friend that despite having the latest and greatest in phones( i-phone) I cannot get text messages returned at all. I dont know if its me or them? Is how I get treated how I treat others? Am I that bad a friend? Is this really a big deal? Am I making a mountain out of a molehill? Well I have been thinking about this and I find the fault is all with me. I am notorious for looking for so much in people and forget that alot of what I am looking for has to come from me. I have 4 sisters and I was close to one of my sisters and we grew apart. I am basically looking for that type of relationship in other people.Looking for a replacement family or sisterhood. Is that fair? No is this right? I put alot of pressure on people all unrealistic and want alot from people. But I always think people want alot from me. Is it "right" to not  let someone know if you are coming to their bday party, no but I know that person is immature. About the returning phone calls well the difference between that person and me is the fact that person has other things to do and doesn't make things that I think are important a priority. Which I can kind of see, since I am not working  I do have alot of time on my hands and have become very insular. So at this point I want to be a good friend and not think people are waiting for me to become their social outlet, like I wait for others to be. I sometimes am totally stuck and sometimes I don't know what to do to meet other people. I know I need to and I want to broaden my social base because this isn't what I had in mind. Wish me luck.....

Whats work got to do with it?

Whew I haven't blogged in a hella long time!! Whats up? Not much with me just  regular life. On the recap end my summer was fun, not as much fun as I would have liked but fun. I spent the time with my daughter and she went on vacation for a while, and I missed her like crazy. Its now November and I have been unemployed for a year. Hence the title.  Not what I wanted but it happened. I wish I could find a job that would take into consideration that I have a child. I remember my mother telling me the story that a boss told her her family wasn't "shit" and that her leaving to attend to a sick child meant giving up her job. I am trying to find the balance between work and my life. I think my life with my daughter is much more important that a job, much more fulfilling an rewarding. But I don't want to give off that energy, and I want to do my job and balance everything. I have a hard time finding   someone to watch my daughter because alot of her family works, and their schedules are often tied up as well. So I would have to pay someone to watch her. I live on unemployment. I don't know how I have done it for a year but it has happened. I need to work my social life it  has taken a huge nosedive, not that it was great before, and I am getting slightly depressed. I would like to be flexible, I went on an interview and was offered the 4-12am shift? I did mention I had a child that had to go to school and that she was pretty young. I know any and all jobs have their needs but I have my needs too. Also why kill yourself for a job and not a career? Why is the workforce so biased against moms? I am a single mom. I remember working at my job and being told I "had to work:" until 11 because everyone else did, no sorry everyone else was 23 and childless. So no after looking at the schedule there wasn't alot of truth to that one. I would like to go back to school, I do need to get my act together but I also need  employers to understand that I can still be an asset  but I have a child that needs me. I often wonder if I made too much of a big deal  over my daughter and then I look into her eyes. She has a bottom line too.