lLast year July or may of 2009, I decided that my marriage had to end. I wasn't being abused, neglected, or cheated on, my husband was just not the one. He is the best dad and a nice guy but not for me. And that was the big issue, I felt alot of affection for him but no attraction, no strong pull to keep it going. We were together for a looong time(together for 6 married for 7 )and the older i got, i was 39 at the time,i just thought it would be good to be honest. I thought all that time i was pmsing, but it lasted allot longer. I became allured by someone else and honestly that person made me feel sexy, listened to, and made me laugh. something my husband did not. My ex and I were walking around like zombies just working having spots of fun here and there but not really connecting and feeling comfortable with each other. I felt like we didn't know each other and believe it or not we have nothing in common, I mean nothing, and never really did. I got married because i loved him, and despite our problems that getting married would fix it out. I was living a lie which sounds corny but I was. My head kept getting turned and I always felt like I was missing something. Always.
I'm happy. Don't get me wrong I have my crying days,I seriously thought I made the wrong move but I want to be happy and I want my daughter to be happy and have great examples and awesome role models, and my daughter was going to suffer, if I was not happy. I'm happy. I'm happy with my 2 yr old and myself. Not ready to look back but Im totally ready to move foward. There is a "one' out there for me. I know it.
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