Just waiting

I texted my ex, because we text but he doesn't seem to want to talk with me, which I get. I asked about the divorce papers and he said they are on the way. How do i feel about that? Its a combo of feelings, happy, sad, excited, and relieved. I don't feel guilt feeling happy, there are days when I look back and wonder if i screwed myself, If I'm going to be by myself forever. If I'm going to die alone,which is know is pure drama but at 40 the clock is ticking. I know what I want and what I need but how to get it is my problem. There are tons of good looking men out there but I find myself having allot of qualifying things I want, lets say need they are:

1) Don't ask tell: I want a man that instead of asking me what to do just does it. My opinion should be secondary to yours, if you have a plan enforce it. Nothing is sexier than a man that has a plan.
2) Be honest: If this needs an explanation then we are in some deep doo doo. if something is bothering you, say so, if you don't like something say so, going with the flow is going to get you going with the flow and not me.
3)Be willing to have fun:I want someone that wants to go out and have fun. fun fun. Be ready to do something, you don't have to spend billions of dollars. I like to talk and do things no matter what. A trip to the Laundromat can be fun, a date for Pink berry can be superfun.
4) Make me laugh: Another than needs little explanation. Funny is good, obnoxious and stuck up is not fun, pain in the ass is not funny, acting like a drunk uncle is not funny, acting like a fool is not funny. Making jokes is funny, and commenting on everyday events with a touch of sarcasm is funny, and makes my heart melt.
So that's just a few. Its not a inclusive list and having one thing on the list is not a deal breaker, but having no things on the list is. I really figured out what I want. I'm so happy for me. Yay!!