Thursday, April 8, 2010

mythology and fact

Pretty angry for the past few days. Just feeling like its going to be a tough road to go and its not going to be smooth over the long haul. Lots of people know my ex hes like a mayor or something. A quiet guy easygoing doesnt like conflict and has what one person described as a "gentle nature" my angst started over visitation and what I percieved as me taking all the burden, which is true, and me being the active parent. It was over a matter of returning my daughter to my home after being out, which i thought was a resonable request, and got told that he "couldnt"do it. Here we go. I thought this would be smooth and easy, silly me. Its funny but no one except my friends are asking how I am doing. I am raising a happy healthy 2 year old, sans her fathers input and it sucks. It hurts only one person; her. I am fed up with people including me feeling sorry for him because he is naive and acts brand new. I am tired bc i work 2 jobs and everyone is worried about how he feels. No one asks about me, sorry my ego is going nuts right now, and everyone is hell bent on protecting him. I guess thats a true testament to me, I can make it and he cant his delicate nature is going to get him in trouble and I am relistant and strong, yeah thats it. I was really angry to the point of leaving work early and feeling depressed. But I guess we will see. Only the strong survive

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