priorities who needs them?

I strive to be a loyal friend at least, if I cant go to the latest club or hang every weekend I feel like I'm  a good listener, and there if someone needs me. Well its summer time and I would like to hang with my friends that I haven't seen in a while but once again like I wrote in a former post, we don't keep in touch very well. Whose fault that is nobody seems to know. So the title of my post, priorities who needs them? is about my friends. I wish people would be honest if not honest, up front and let others know especially your  friends that  they won't call or make time for you. I have a friend that told another friend of  that she was "anti social'  that's why she hasn't  called said person. How can you have friends and be "anti social", maybe you should say; "hey I have other priorities and I don't have phone calls at the top of my list:", honesty is always the best policy no? I would in fact, I have, I like to be upfront with people and I know when to cut and run. The funny thing to me is that these people(the ones that never call) are relatively free, ie no kids and travel and go out at a moments notice. I have a child and I can't, it involves more planning. I always seem to put all of this "being a good friend" stuff on my shoulders and I cant anymore because it suddenly is not a priority for me either. I'm not being rude or vindictive, I'm being real. I am going to actually focus my attention on people that want to go out, that want to talk with me, and I don't see every 3 months and they are within spitting distance. I don't think I ask for a lot, I think paying attention t o me is important and everyone needs to feel special, in any and all relationships. I finally learned that my feelings are not petty and  simple things like phone calls and keeping in contact are important, in other words a priority.

Wherever whatever

So far so good. I'm not going to prattle on about how long its taken me to write but I think for the summer I am going to do more writing. I plan to purchase a bathing suit, I plan to do a lot this summer, god willing I will be able to do it. Hopefully I wont be to angry when I slip that bathing suit on , I promise I wont cry. I hope im in the "don't care'" category when that happens. My unemployment is going to end at some point hopefully I will find a job in that time. I know that I'm not ever going to falter in the future.

I am writing about friends, what else is new and some of them that are ungrateful. Well I want to be clear, we all are ungrateful at some point,  but to make a steady habit out of it is bogus. The back story is this; I had a friend of mine that has a child so she is a friend to my daughter, and she disappeared for a while. I went to a Fourth of July party and she showed up. Now I haven't spoken or seen her since October, she gave me a kiss and hug, it was warm and I thought that would open up conversation but it didn't. She was closed up like a clam,I tried, I also bought food for her child and mine and I got not a thank you, not a hey thanks but nothing, nothing after that. Her friend was more gracious and we talked.We sat and conversed while she checked Facebook, rude and selfish must I add.  I couldn't attend a party she had and I guess she wanted to have a grudge  and she is riding it for all its worth, actually its not worth much.The worst part of her is that is she is  selfish and ungrateful and doesn't understand which side her bread is buttered on, that kills me about people. I think it takes other people to make the world go around, its not just you working on your own steam. People help you and that's how you further yourself.There's always someone behind the scenes. Everyone that says nothing is ever given to me, well you don't get what you have because of "divine intervention". She doesn't either want to or care that she is living on the "company dime" so to speak.She is mega negative and I just don't want things like that in my life, and I always hope others don't want drama and negativity in their lives but they keep perpetuating it. Ahhh I guess some will never learn. Last night my FB status was something to this effect; thank god you have to pick your friends, because I am not picking her, or  many others. I thought our reunion would be sweet, it ended up leaving a very bitter taste in my mouth.